My favorite thing about music is the lyrics. I find song lyrics so inspiring and emotional. Imagine what it feels like to a songwriter, especially a singer songwriter who stands in front of a crowd of 50,000 people waving their hands and singing your lyrics back to you. The emotions etched on the faces of the crowd and the feelings that come from understanding your poetry. What could be better than that?
When I’m writing a scene that’s what I strive for, although, I know I still lack the skill. I try to immerse myself in it and feel what I’m writing but I just can’t seem to relay that into words yet. I think its hit and miss really, sometimes I’m on, but most of the time it’s sorta flat.
I have to wonder if it’s me not able to break through my shell. I walk through life with a smile and try to focus on the positive. It is a survival technique and very useful most of the time (but not all the time). However, I have to wonder if it’s holding me back. I just cannot force myself to be the struggling artist.
I had this conversation with my good friend Laura and she believes all good great artists are haunted by something. She’s convinced it’s what makes them creative or gives them their drive. As if pain is their muse. What does this say about me, the writer? What if I don’t want to struggle? What if I don’t want to be miserable? What if I don’t want to sit around and feel sorry for myself then write pitiful entries in my journal? What if I don’t want to be haunted by bad memories and things that have gone wrong in my life? The main struggle in my life is trying to write good convincing fiction that draws people in.
Do great non-struggling artist exist? What do you think about the theory of all great artist being haunted?